...and an early morning at that. It is 6:47 AM EST, and it is completely normal for me to be awake right now. Most people think I am completely nuts. I am not wide awake, mind you. I am awake enough to function and I can do this without a cup of coffee. I still drink coffee but for it's flavor, not its caffeine benefits. Caffeine does nothing to me. Anyways, to proceed with my thoughts for the day.
I feel amazing. I don't think I have ever felt so clear in my life. As my last post suggested, I was contemplating what veiling would mean for me. It covers a broad range of purposes, so after finding some kindred sisters out and about and online, I decided to give it a try. I covered in a style called a tichel, a scarf or bandana simply tied over the head, covering the top part of the head and the hair that is styled in a bun. I didn't know what I would think about it. I had always had the misconception that covering my hair would be some sort of large step backwards in my independence, that I would be doing it as a sign of submissiveness to my husband. Well, I learned a valuable lesson. It's all crap! I covered for several hours the first day, and anytime I was home yesterday. I have decided for the time being that I will cover with the tichel while I am at home. I see it as sort of my domain and my covering is like a crown, my mark of respect indicating that the home is my domain. I feel ultra-sexy when I wear it, even my husband gets excited when he sees me in it. It also has a nice effect when I take it off just before bed, seeing my hair is sort of a novelty thing now.
I don't expect too many people to understand why I am doing it, or believe that it is a request from my Divine guidance, or that I actually enjoy doing it (in fact, I don't have it on right now and I feel completely naked). But any woman who has felt a calling from their God to do something out of devotion, and more specifically my Muslim, Mennonite, and other conservative faith sisters will understand. And even if I have no one to share this journey with, it is who I am and I am proud of it.
So what is everyone up to for the rest of the week?
I am off to the library, those books won't shelve themselves. I am only 2 months away from beginning to write the library's history in book format and hopefully I can get it done in 2 months. I have all of the material I need for it, organizing and catalogued by me, so it should just be easy. I just have to organize the words on paper in specific order and viola, a book. :)
HAVE A MARVELOUS DAY!
I feel amazing. I don't think I have ever felt so clear in my life. As my last post suggested, I was contemplating what veiling would mean for me. It covers a broad range of purposes, so after finding some kindred sisters out and about and online, I decided to give it a try. I covered in a style called a tichel, a scarf or bandana simply tied over the head, covering the top part of the head and the hair that is styled in a bun. I didn't know what I would think about it. I had always had the misconception that covering my hair would be some sort of large step backwards in my independence, that I would be doing it as a sign of submissiveness to my husband. Well, I learned a valuable lesson. It's all crap! I covered for several hours the first day, and anytime I was home yesterday. I have decided for the time being that I will cover with the tichel while I am at home. I see it as sort of my domain and my covering is like a crown, my mark of respect indicating that the home is my domain. I feel ultra-sexy when I wear it, even my husband gets excited when he sees me in it. It also has a nice effect when I take it off just before bed, seeing my hair is sort of a novelty thing now.
I don't expect too many people to understand why I am doing it, or believe that it is a request from my Divine guidance, or that I actually enjoy doing it (in fact, I don't have it on right now and I feel completely naked). But any woman who has felt a calling from their God to do something out of devotion, and more specifically my Muslim, Mennonite, and other conservative faith sisters will understand. And even if I have no one to share this journey with, it is who I am and I am proud of it.
So what is everyone up to for the rest of the week?
I am off to the library, those books won't shelve themselves. I am only 2 months away from beginning to write the library's history in book format and hopefully I can get it done in 2 months. I have all of the material I need for it, organizing and catalogued by me, so it should just be easy. I just have to organize the words on paper in specific order and viola, a book. :)
HAVE A MARVELOUS DAY!
I like analogy of the covering feeling like a crown. I've not felt called to try this myself but I do enjoy reading about it.
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